词：天逸
曲：天逸
Pain has become the most familiar safe haven for me
I've even started fearing recovery
it would mean leaving the well-acclimated room named
sorrow"and facing an unknown world without you.
I tend to my own heartbreak
like nurturing a delicate plant
I water it with memories
bathe it in sunlight with old photos
and keep any "happy"pests away.
Sometimes I am horrified to find myself "enjoying"this pain
for it is the last twisted
painful link between you and me.
I have become a symbiotic entity with my own wounds
Shedding pain feels like shedding a part of myself.
Loving you is an illness
missing you is a side effect. And I, shamefully
cling to this pathological familiarity