Drowning (Explicit) - Sik World
Lyrics by：Jonathon Quiles
Composed by：Jonathon Quiles
Stay wanna stay gonna
Yeah I wish I can numb this pain
I thought by now I won't complain
I got the cash with half the fame
Lost half my heart and kept the veins
We had our spark and lost our flame
I tried to talk had none to say
I want the love you never gave was hurting me
Your only aim
You shot my heart I bled out hate
'Cause tho you left the trauma stayed
I wish the past would go away
But I guess gotta live with it
Times changed I don't feel different
Despite the hurdles in my life
I kept my vision alive
I had no one on my side
Yet I still did it
I'm missing the old me talking pre depression
Where I felt alive and I had a connection
Now I'm dead inside 'cause I lost my direction
I don't put my wall down for my own protection
And I'm tired of people using me people lie
What do you believe
I know people see the truth in me
And I know one day you will see
That being true was a tool for me
I be sticking to myself I don't need nobody else
Just relief from this trauma that keeps on ruining me
'Cause lately I'm loosing sleep
And nobody's getting thru' to me
It's 'cause it
Feels like I'm losing sleep
I want my mind at ease
Feels like I'm losing me
I wanna find relief
Feels like I need to breathe
I think I'm into deep now
I'm drowning in my thoughts
Drowning by myself
I'm drowning I need help
I'm drowning they can't tell
I'm drowning oh
Yeah
I'm still here and still driven
People see me as a meal ticket
They get nothing they can deal with it
I guess me and them were built different
I work for whatever I'm given
I been living inside of my room since I was 15
Making a bunch of songs hoping somebody gets me
I always felt alone and the feeling is sickening
When you're expressing your pain
And no one is listening and
Life's hard to manage
I feel like I have a disadvantage
Since my childhood left me hella damaged
I don't know love because I never had it
Every relationship I'm in never lasted
Only toxic woman was all I attracted
I continuously fear having attachments
Honestly it was really hard getting past it but
It is what it is you get what you give
I wish I learned quicker look I probably did
Just didn't accept it
Inside of my mind is where my demons roam
I try to hide 'cause they won't leave me alone
I overthink all of my mistakes on my own
I don't know where to go it's 'cause it
Feels like I'm losing sleep
I want my mind at ease
Feels like I'm losing me
I wanna find relief
Feels like I need to breathe
I think I'm into deep now
I'm drowning in my thoughts
Drowning by myself
I'm drowning I need help
I'm drowning they can't tell
I'm drowning oh