Your Midas touch on the Chevy door
November flush and your flannel cure
"This dorm was once a madhouse"
I made a joke "well it's made for me"
How evergreen our group of friends
Don't think we'll say that word again
And soon they'll have the nerve to deck the halls
That we once walked through
One for the money two for the show
I never was ready so I watch you go
Sometimes you just don't know the answer
'Til someone's on their knees and asks you
"She would've made such a lovely bride
What a shame she's f**ked in the head "they said
But you'll find the real thing instead
She'll patch up your tapestry that I shred
Maybe we got lost in translation
Maybe I asked for too much
But maybe this thing was a masterpiece
'til you tore it all up
Running scared I was there I remember it all too well
And you call me up again just to break me like a promise
So casually cruel in the name of being honest
I'm a crumpled up piece of paper lying here
'Cause I remember it all all all
They say all's well that ends well
But I'm in a new hell every time
You double-cross my mind
You said if we had been closer in age
Maybe it would have been fine
And that made me want to die
The idea you had of me
Who was she
A never-needy ever lovely jewel
Whose shine reflects on you
Not weeping in a party bathroom
Some actress asking me what happened
You
That's what happened You
You who charmed my dad with self-effacing jokes
Sipping coffee like you were on a late night show
But then he watched me watch the front door
All night willing you to come
And he said "it's supposed to be fun
Turning 21"
How long could we be a sad song
'Til we were too far gone to bring back to life
I gave you all my best me's my endless empathy
And all I did was bleed as I tried to be the bravest soldier
Fighting in only your army
Frontlines don't you ignore me
I'm the best thing at this party
You're losin' me
And I wouldn't marry me either
A pathological people pleaser
Who only wanted you to see her
And I'm fadin' thinkin'
"Do something babe say something"
Say something
"Lose something babe risk something"
You're losin' me
"Choose something babe I got nothing
Got nothing
To believe
Unless you're choosin' me"