I've been tryna hold tight
Nobody can hear it when my soul cries
I just disappear within these walls I
Created to survive all these long nights
No lie
All my energy have been stolen from this cold life
Wonder what would happen if I don't fight
Tryna tell myself that I'll be alright
So I promise that I'ma hold tight
Even if they can't hear when my soul cries
I'll just disappear into these walls I
Created to survive all these long nights
I'm so tired
All my energy have been stolen from this cold life
Wonder what would happen if I don't fight
Tryna tell myself that I'll be alright
Give it more time
If opposites attract then why has happiness been running away
Once I get a glimpse
My instinct's telling me it's not okay
It's only putting distance in the love I've been tryna chase
It starts just hurting you until you learn that that's not the case
My family say they miss me
We live in the same house
Homies say they love me
But they ain't even reached out
So I think
Maybe everyone's going through it themselves
And if they strong enough to fight it
Then I should learn that myself
So I keep quiet
Wear a smile even though they don't know what's behind it
And when I'm in a better place
I'm sure I'll be reminded
Of why I shouldn't be
I hate it but that's how my mind is
But I've come to find that everyone's tryna
Hold tight
Nobody can hear it when my soul cries
I just disappear within these walls I
Created to survive all these long nights
No lie
All my energy have been stolen from this cold life
Wonder what would happen if I don't fight
Tryna tell myself that I'll be alright
So I promise that I'ma hold tight
Even if they can't hear when my soul cries
I'll just disappear into these walls I
Created to survive all these long nights
I'm so tired
All my energy have been stolen from this cold life
Wonder what would happen if I don't fight
Tryna tell myself that I'll be alright
Give it more time
On this road of twists and turns
All I want's to stay aligned
Sick of feeling like my purpose is to try and stay alive
Waiting for my time to flourish
I'm done standing in this line
Taking my way about this gravy
I dug my years of playing blind
You asked for strength
So then why do you expect life is gon' be easy
Ask for peace but you only know the difference when it starts feeling
Like your world is closing in
You hit the bottom and meet your demons
In the moment you're in hell but the other side gives its reason
Held tight but grip slipped went down a route that's hard to shake
Met addiction and she found me at a time when I needed saving
Life's a trip that never stops
God's not supposed to give us breaks
We learn to move as we go through it so I feel when you say
I've been tryna hold tight
Nobody can hear it when my soul cries
I just disappear within these walls I
Created to survive all these long nights
No lie
All my energy have been stolen from this cold life
Wonder what would happen if I don't fight
Tryna tell myself that I'll be alright
So I promise that I'ma hold tight
Even if they can't hear when my soul cries
I'll just disappear into these walls I
Created to survive all these long nights
I'm so tired
All my energy have been stolen from this cold life
Wonder what would happen if I don't fight
Tryna tell myself that I'll be alright
Give it more time
Balancing these lows by getting so high
Tricked me into thinking I was alright
Took me everything to let it go I
Lost out on a lot
I wish I had more time
Life's gon' play us wrong
And we're not supposed to understand it all
So I promise that I'ma hold tight
Even if they can't hear when my soul cries
I'll just disappear into these walls I
Created to survive all these long nights
I'm so tired
All my energy have been stolen from this cold life
Wonder what would happen if I don't fight
Tryna tell myself that I'll be alright
Give it more time