nature (Explicit) - sad alex
F**k me I'm a tidal wave 'bout to make
The city fall down
I'm clean 'til I'm pretty wasted
'Cause you're getting wasted
'Cause you're like that now
I'm not sure anymore
If I can make you turn around open doors
'Cause I don't like me when I'm acting out
Living like a civil war
But I want what I can't I can't help myself
I'm selfish in love I love you too much
I'm f**king this up
But I can't hold it in
So I say it out loud it's loud in my head
My head's ringing out I wanna be dead
But I can't do it
No I can't change a thing
It's just my nature I guess
Like I wanna make sure that you hate me again
And I'm not gonna fix it or pretend
When it's just my nature
Sideways like a sheet of rain
Maybe I should straighten my mind
Do things for the thrill of it
Take a pill of it just to see if it works
This time
I'm not sure anymore
If I can keep holding up what I forged up about me
Train wreck I still got it bad
Hating that you made me like that
But I want what I can I can't help myself
I'm selfish in love I love you too much
I'm f**king this up
But I can't hold it in
'Cause it's loud in my head I say it out loud
It's all ringing out I wanna be proud
But I can't do it yeah I can't change a thing
It's just my nature again
Like I wanna make sure that you hate me I guess
And I'm not gonna fix it or pretend
When it's just my nature no
Yeah it's just my nature no
So I do it again I'm playing it up
And hating myself for letting me down
Yeah how am I weaker than everyone else
Telling me what's really in love
'Cause you're f**king not and I can't get over it
Taking the hit I'm losing myself
But still holding on 'cause funny enough
You're all that I know that I want
It's all that I know
It's just my nature
I wanna make sure that you hate me again
And I'm not gonna fix it or pretend